Well, not quite, but i did manage to get through my 3rd semester Multivariable Calculus course with an A and my Physics 201 w/ calculus course with a B. So overall I'm pretty happy. Next semester Diff Eq or 4th Semester of Calculus here i come! I also have to take Physics 202 w/ Calculus. Hopefully it will be less difficult than the first semester. Oh, BTW, I'm an avid supporter of Ron Paul.

As I near the end of the semester right around the corner I realize that I've dropped 2 of the 3 courses I originally registered for, a sum total of 12 units, that being: Calculus 3, Physics 201 with calculus and Communications 100(public speaking). Reasons for dropping these 2 courses include myself not being compatible with style of a certain professor and or his lack of ability to teach those who don't know; next reason being that possibly from the start of course I have not been able to get myself to study long enough to struggle through material or the time of day course is given or lack of sleep or many other sorts of misdiagnosed potential problems. When everything is said and done, I went from 12 units down to 3 and the more I think about it, the more I think I am dumb; could it possibly be that this is just a bad semester out of the 3 years that I've been going to school to relearn all of that which I did not in my primary through high school years. As President of Princeton University put it 12k system is broken and I would have to give him props for acknowledging that fact because I'm a prime example. I know that I'm not a failure because to get to where I am right now is a prime accomplishment to be rewarded. At this point, all I can do is shrug it off for another semester and use right now as a means to prepare for the days to come when I will have to reassess my abilities to work through the courses.

P.S. I think somewhere in this diatribe it became a bit convoluted. Suffice it to say that it made sense at the time smiles

School is nearly a week away and I'm starting to feel it coming near. Class starts on Jan 23 and I've only chosen 2 classes thus far to take: Calculus 2 and C# programming. I would have taken Physics 1 but the course was not available. My break has been rather uneventful; I've done virtually nothing I thought I was going to do or even wanted to attempt to accomplish. I think that I've learned that planning does not work for me; I only seem to get work--pertaining to my programming--accomplished when I least want to. I get bouts of depression or states of melon collie as though it was trendy. So programming is not always the first thing that is on my mind. These days I contemplate large life changing events such as getting a drivers license and car, which my father is paying for un-enthusiastically--I'm enthusiastic about it though. Also I'm looking into prices for my first possible laptop. Looking into the duo architecture for the laptop, looks pretty nice.

Today is the last day of the potential semester until Sprint 2006 semester begins on I believe January 23. I've finished all of my finals and I'm uncertain as to the results on my chemistry final as to what I scored for my grade for all practical purposes. I scored an 88 percent on my Calculus 1 final which means I'm in good shape to move into Calculus 2; never thought I would reap this day. I woke up this morning freezing down to my bones; technically it was not freezing in my room, but it supposedly was 30F during the coldest part of the night--winder solstice coming soon--and I just didn't want to get up. I was and still so cold that I have on an entire sweat suite plus my bathrobe. I'm somewhat relieved that I don't have school for almost a month.

So, I did reasonably well on my last 2 tests: chemistry, and calculus. Which I did reasonably decent on--seriously. But anyways, I got a 90% on my chem test which was a jaw dropping experience when I saw those 2 pretty digits on the front of that test. Then on the same day I got my chem test back, I took my calculus test and earned myself a 86% which is a staggering leap from 67%, which was the grade I earned previously in my calculus course. Anyways the ironic part to this whole story is that the only reason I believe I did [reasonably] well on these two tests was because I was talking to people and blowing off some tension before the anxiety had a chance to bite me in the ass. Normally, when I tell myself I'm going to do well--you can imagine the outcome--it normally turns into a miserable failure; normally i call this a brain fart. Anyways.. this post is more of a rambling of excitement but also of no true point.